Yesterday I went out with my sister and Joshua and li ear. Yup, that's right, I went out with a bunch of 13 year olds.
OH HOW WILL I HOLD MY HEAD HIGH EVER AGAIN!
Lols jk la. They're nt that weird, so it's okay ^^ hahahah! :D jkjk.
Younger ppl can be fun too!

But anyway not saying that it was the funnest. Cos it wasn't.
Cos SOMEBODY kept saying we didn't need to plan what to do before getting there and so we didn't plan :@
But we got to do some awesome things la, at least :)

Played arcade, watched movie, then went bowling!

GUESS WHAT MOVIE LITTLE 14-YEaR OLD ME WATCHEDDDD! :D
I
Watched
Frreaaaaking
ZOMBIELAND :D
We snuck into the theatre! Went to kallang leisure park, then the theatres there're like GV's where u give the tickets at the hallway and then there're a long row of doors.
(and thedoors obviously lead to the theater)

(btw is it spelt theater or theatre?)

Anyway back to Zombieland
It was quite a nice movie la, quite funny :D but not rib-cracking funny.
Just amusing, ohmyfreak-what-is-he-doing-LOL funny. :D
It's really quite gross though. But stil not as vomit-worthy as Drag me to Hell.
Basically ultra fake blood everywhere and ultra fake intestines, veins and arteries being pulled out from bodies by zombies everywhere.
But I think the movie's quite good :D
Not very meaningful, memorable, impactful, but stil good for an escape from everyday worries xD
That is, IF, u weren't worrying throughout the whole thing about whether you'd get caught -.-

Today I went for Nation's Cup finals!
Very interesting!
That's a lie.

DAMN BORING. Except maybe the Scotland vs. Northern Ireland match.
But for first two, sg vs msia and Tanzania vs Canada I was practically gonna sleep, URGGH. T.T
Not that they didn't play well, but I mean one team would be so obviously better and stronger than the other that there's kinda nearly Sort of ABSOLUTTELY NO ENTERTAINMENT VALUE in it.
Okayokay I know I was supposed to be learning moves, but it was so boring.. Forgiiiveeeee me.

Had dinner with Elaine, lunch at home cos I had no cash to pay for lunch with the rest. Yippee for me <3
Luckily awesome dawne gave starving min chih some fries though! xD yay!

Haha alright goodnight peeps I'm tired, possibly sick, and I wanna be able to go for dance class tmr. So bye bye! :D

Wow I'm really starting to like this app.
Now if only there was some Microsoft word app for itouch as well.
THEN THIS THING COULD BECOME MY FULL TIME COMP SUBSTITUTE. But then again using a computer still always feels more serious
Now I seriously only go online for iTunes or for PSB things :O everything else I use the itouch for it <3
THANK GOD MY GRADES WERE GOOD ENOUGH FOR IT MAN! xD

Hehe and somemore my genius uncle knows how to .. Do some funnyfunny thing on his iPhone so that Microsoft softwares can be used and it's skins also!
So if he helps me, I'll be able to do EVERYTH on my itouch!
Piang the whole world's getting dominated by iWhatevers.

Now even if some other brand's mp3 is super stylish and super easy to use, it just won't match up to apple's stuff anymore, just because of the branding :O
How sad is that.
If only I owned Apple.

Maybe next time I'll try to make some company like that! Hmmm in the.. Err.. Fish selling industry.. xD or DESSERT STALL INDUSTRY oh yes!
The technology industry's taken.

Well anyway. I'd just like to say how proud of myself I am!
I managed to work out according to ms Chng's instructions so far!! And I've even done extra!
Did weights and cycling on my bike machine at home as well! :D

And I'm even proudder to say that I'm gonna walk my two stupid dogs (<3) in half an hour's time cos I think they haven't been let out of the house in like.. A week? :O

Think they're becoming sadddd D: suppose I gotta take responsibility to them, since we'd decided to take them in as a part of the family. So... Wateva! xD

Alright THERE I've updated again! Some day, I'll actually post something purposeful/meaningful. Or at least, something that tries to be xD

Zai4 Jian4!

~ the hardest thing to be is yourself

Omgz the past three days have been AWESOME. Reminded me so well about how much I love my friends and how important they are to me <3
Monday had JPSB outing to sentosa then vivo, the Amanda stayed for sleepover.
Then next day me and alch and kailing went shopping lol aft me and alch went East Coast!
Anddd today I got to meet dawne Elaine and jaslin again! Feels like so long since I last hug out with them! Went for New Moon (for the second time. Yes, I know, WTH right the movie so boring somemre) then went for Nations Cup!

Monday and Tuesday was great :D haha I had lotsa fun! But I was like moody ish and tired and just zoned out the whole time so I think I was a bit of a party pooper for Louisa and the rest. Sorry guys :(
Sigggh guess I ain't really that much of a party person. Til night xD haha. Dunno why also man.. I'm weird that way, just can't hang out in large groups in the day. Seriously. It's weird. O.o
Feel quite bad abt my zoned outness :P will try to work on that gahh! Later disappoint everyone again ^^

Hm anywayy I bought prettyyy purple nail polish with amanda at vivo at night later COS THE REST OF YOU SUCkERS WENT OFF :@
Though thinking back that may possibly be cos of my dao-ness.. Siggh sorry dunno what's wrong with me haha.
Anyway. One of the few times that I actually SHOPPED. Went all around vivo checking out Topman.. Mango.. Forever 21 etc etc xD so fun!
SHIT I think I am startig to like doing this IT'S ADDICTIVELY FUN EVEN THOUGH IT'S A WASTE OF MY TIME! And the worst is I'm not starting to like saving money. Great job. Great job. -.-
Mst refrain from this! It's called spending outside your means, which's what got the whole world into this shit in the first place :O oh my my my!
Tuesday did nothing to help with the addiction lol.
After a ridiulously short and futile trip to East Coast (an hour?) doing nothing but talking and taking pics we (me and alch, after sleepover) took an mrt to far east to meet kailing!
VERY NEARLY got a manicure, but alch last min pulled out so I did too. And poor kailing hence then decided she didn't want to either ^^ teehee. Sorry dude, we love our self-applied-and-hence-rather-messy nail polish all too much! :D

After that we like walked to étude house, then took mrt to Somerset, 313!
That place looks quite cool really :P but my issue with it is that it's weird, cos it looks like it cant decide whether it's an orchard shopping mall, or a neighbourhood one.
You'll see what I mean when you go there yourself! :D
It's BORING though, cos all the shops you can find there, you can find at vivo or ion too -.-
So in the end, Bugis, where we went to next, was the most exciting cos te stuff there were actually DIFFERENT :O haha
And as my fb status said, I bought this stupid too-short tank top which had an ugly tag sticking out from the middle of nowhere saying MADE IN THAILAND -.-

Today I actually only meant to watch New Moon and then zao.
Hehe oops btw sorry jas Elaine dawne for being so slow ^^ NOT MY FAULT I OVERSLEPT! It was .. The dog's fault.. They ate up my alarm clock :D
Anyway, in the end cos they loved me so much, they begged me to stay for lunch, and then Nations Cup^^ TEEHEE!
Okay fine plus it was fun meeting them again :D <3
STUPID dawne won so many prizes during the breaks omgz! She nearly won a netball too but itjust slipped right out of her fingers D: awwww. Haha. Abit wasted la.. Free netball leh! Sian man D:
Ohoh! And I finally bluetoothed my first iPod to iPhone picture AHHHH!! :D
It's now my DP on my itouch! Pic of me Elaine and dawne!

Okay now I'm tired, so I'll be going to sleep! :D CIAO people

~ keep on trying guys, cos a trying time is no time to quit trying. <3

Yes mayo okay I wil continue postig a few more then it will count as updated! xD yay. Haha. Alright. Bye.

Well the rough patch's over.. :D thank goodness for that.Well actually only the worst of it's over, so no it's not all happy and gay yet
But it is gayer than before.
Sigh I feel really SICK talking abt this AGAIN yet if I don't talk abt it it'll stay all bottledup inside also. Dunno.. Wdv I'll just talk abt it until I bth.

Aiya I wish wish we'd never even started. This feeling sucks I wanna go back to last time cos like everywhere I go I can remember old good memories OR I will remember things we'd decided to do in te future at wdv place - shopping, sight-seeing, whatever!
Either way it was fun doing stuff together.
But the thing is that when I just don't do ANYTH and just TALK or do normal things that I MYSELF, personally, am not excited n distracted by,
I realize that maybe it was jus the process I enjoyed. Really purely the process. Not a good thing, in this case
Plus fine fine my friends brought up that topic too.
I suppose now I should start trying to make it like balanced and all. Learn from it and put a stop to this horridness!
I just want to have my options ..
But this feels so bad and guilty but wel as anther fren said, this type of thing even if only one side dowan, it's sorta okay cos te other way wouldn't work either.

So.. Yeah I dunno still!
Aiya basically exercise exercise and get longer hair and get smarter and life will be happier! Hopefully earn cash too.. xD

HOLY GUACAMOLE
i am DYING here
i cant take this anymore cant take this cant take this cant take this
CANT TAKE THIS CANT TAKE THIS CANT TAKE THIS
THIS IS HORRID
HORRIBLE
HORRID
HORRIBLE
i'm going to freaking DIE.

I'M GOINGGOINGGOINGGOING TO DIE
DIEDIEDIE
i WISH i nv decided to start all this in the first place

LIFE SUUUUUCKS DAMN DAMN DAMN DAMN DAMN

DAMN

EUURUGHASDFL;KAJRGKLNFBXJZKNGFLSRJ

i am srsly feeling so
SHITTY right now
so ...
I MEAN THERE'S NO WAY OUT DAMN IT

and i CAN'T BELEIVE I'M BLOGGING AGAIN OMGNESS I'M THAT LIFELESS

I SHOULD NVER HAVE READ HIS NOTE
i'm going to DIEEEEE die die die DIEEEE.

he's too nice and i'm too different
YOU KNOW WHAT HE SAID OMGZXLSAZ on FB?!
when asked if he was disappoitned with anybody
he said NOOOO NO POITN BEARING GRUDGES, I SUPPOSE I'M THE ONE WHO HAS TO CHANGE.
#$@*#%&^)!(&@(#*!$(*@#$^(^&)^&()(#$%!@#%!#$%#
why
why
why
why

is he so nice!
this' making me feel worse!
i'd rather he was the one feeling like this!
SERIOUSLY
I'D DEAL WITH IT!
SOME WAY OR ANOTHER
he won't be able to!

omgzlasx and now we're on msn
and he's being TOO NICE again!
every single little thing i say
he can interpret totally well
WHICH'S WORSE
or better in a sense..
WORSE because he can TOTALLY UNDERSTAND
how i feel now.
and MUCH WORSE also because he's trying to deny it still and work harder to correct it
how shitty a life is that.

i wish i nv got him into such deep shit.

sigh.

damn.


DAMFLKAJORINGIOQJGLKAEFMNYBLKQMGNILERNGSKLDVJ';f

NO that is not some vulgarity

helllll. this' so hard for me to handle
i shld've listened to mummy.

every single second
every single millisecondddd
i'm lying
lying so baddlyyy in his face
but if i dont
the results'll be worse!
now it's just so..
so so screwed
or maybe i'm going thru puberty.

AS I HAVE BEEN FOR THE PAST GAZILLION YEARS?!

OMGNESS PUBERTY CANT TAKE THAT LONG RIGHT?!
HELL

PUBERTY SUCKS

OMGNESS NOW I'M GOING HYSTERICAL

that's it from now on i gotta stop the caffeine.

grrrasfjlkdsjflkj
i gotta stop givign him false hope...
but what if it's not false hope?
what if i'm really gonna be okay soon
but not anytime soon that's all

but but well like ningxin said
everything can turn out the way i want it
CAN turn out.
CAN
possibility!
may or may not!
just like saying...
i may be able to magically get into harvard somehow
just somehow
of course there's that strange possiblity
but of course that possibility's slim
blablabla


whatever.

omgnesss.

this sucks
srsly
this sucks
like a straw
like a lollipop
it'll keep SUCKING till it's goneee!
^^
geddit
learn frm my little sister one.

sigggh.

okay i've finished my ranting

i'm gonna keep letting out my frustration here and keeping everythign else under wraps.

so if you guys are looking for happy gay blogposts

let me warn you in advance: GO SOMEWHR ELSE.

adios! xD